Don’t you feel bad for leaving your kid with someone other than family?
Do you miss her when you are away?
But you don’t have a constant eye on her!
She got sick because you let her play outside so that you could get some work done.
It is only a job for the caretaker, but it is your kid. You should have been more careful.
You could easily take a break, this is when she needs you the most!
How can you leave your kid with your parents to go on a business trip? OMG!
Are you sure she’s okay being away from you?
The many many questions I face, every working mother faces, from others and from their own minds. Sometimes my chest constricts and I can’t take a breath from all the pressure. While motherhood is blissful, it is also extremely restraining. Being tied to someone all the time and knowing what they ate last, what they are trying to tell you, what color their poop was, whether they filled enough diapers, whether it is time for potty training, if they are sick because they played in the sand or because they caught it from one of the other kids they played with, who they play with, whether the babysitter followed all your instructions, if they ate too little or too much… Yes, if reading this is exhausting, one can imagine how exhausting it would be for the ones living it.
I am not judging anyone for their opinions but I would personally like a breather from all the questions (including the ones of my own making, running amok in my mind). A working mother has enough on her plate. If possible, help her get going. Else, please reserve your opinions – that’s the least you could do.
That’s what February 2019 is about! The gear is on, the ride is ready and I have no other option than to get on. Because honestly the ground is slipping beneath my feet.
I have often heard people say that if you want something so badly, the entire universe will conspire to enable you to achieve your dream. Well, when you apply that to my life, all I can say is so far, so good. But here is a juncture that poses a question again. One that reeks of uncertainty. And if you knew one thing about me, it would be that I like planning and control. So this situation which doesn’t have a trace of a plan has swept the rug off my feet. I try everyday to let it go, but in vain.
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I blame that inability to let things happen on my passion. Being passionate about something in your life gives a sense of fulfillment that nothing else does. My work is something I deeply care about and have no willingness to sacrifice. My work has given me a sense of confidence, a true indication of what I am good at, what I am capable of, and what I should improve at. But how long I will have the support system to have a work-life balance is something I am unaware of. And of all things, the universe should know how badly I want this to work out. *Fingers crossed*
Until later 🙂
Is there anything wrong in aspiring to have it all?
Is there anything wrong in trying to do it all?
Until later 🙂