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Spontaneous!!

October 26, 2010 / / 8 Comments

Hi people 🙂

I have always wanted to write a post without wracking my brains to find the perfect way to present my words. This is my first try at writing as words race around my mind and let us see how it goes.

The weekend was simply awesome and I can’t tell you reasons for that 😛

Yesterday and today at office-as hectic and irritating as ever,yet I am recently picking up on learning to shrug off irritations(I suppose) 😉

Have regained my obsession with Happy Aquarium on facebook.In addition to me being addictive to the game, am also having a loved slave who feeds and trains my fish 😛

I cannot just bear when people around me want me to make decisions for them. I just hate such people who cannot decide what they want or have to do and ask others’ guidance for each and every possible crap.

I came to realize that “Certain people never change!!” and that they are capable of utter stupidity.

I got a hell a lotta gifts for this bday and every one of them was great. I never got so many wishes (Thanks to FB-my wall got flooded with around 64 wishes-yeah I counted them :P) as on this 20-10-2010. Thanks a lot ppl 🙂

I cannot help wondering how people turn out to be when I keep thinking that they cannot be like that. I have had a lot of impressions or say, nice opinions about my classmates at college and they proved me wrong. This has happened more than once for me and every time it was guys who did that.

I decided not to tell anyone about writing this post, but failed at this(Told a friend that am doing this post, just because he asked “what are you doing?”-Come on, I was being spontaneous while writing a spontaneous post and told him the truth) 😛

I really want to learn typing without looking at the keyboard.(I type reasonably fast yet, I can’t type without looking at the keyboard) Praveen made this craze grow even more with his superfast fingers.

I am sitting at office and doing this post, just because the person who has to give me instructions on proceeding about the work is  “Away”. Also, I might be held up at office until 10.00 P.M. today and I totally hate it.

I love shiny,glassy things and go crazy about them.

I go into this “oh no! Not again!” mood when my dad starts advising me and then again feel guilty for being so.

I am a spendthrift. Every month I spend money senselessly and at the end of the month, i bug Adhi to help me manage my accounts and sort them out for the next month. This month might be better because of Adhi’s “Expenses” spreadsheet where every penny I spend is accounted.

Missing Ramya even more after meeting up with her just recently. She is my ditto as you might have known from an earlier post and I love that “ditto” nickname  which she invented for herself 🙂

I guess my spontaneity is coming to an end as I don’t get any more random thoughts to my mind.

I am thinking that you are bored to the core already.Yeah! I mean you! *Pointing you*

I started reading the book  “Between the Assassinations by “Aravind Adiga” last month and haven’t finished it yet. That’s because I didn’t read it for more than 1 day from when I bought it.However, I am feeling bad now because I never leave a book unattended to. Hoping to finish it soon 🙂

Okay. I have bored you people enough. As the same thought became redundant in my mind and hence the post, am stopping here and posting it without even previewing the post. 🙂

Until later 🙂

P.S: This post was edited once for good reasons.

A very fine day :)

October 16, 2010 / / 3 Comments

Finally, I have broadband connection in my laptop!!!

Today is a day defined totally by memorable experiences:

Enthiran+

Lunch with friends at a mall+

The place we chose to eat had a perfect view of the hussain sagar lake with Lord Buddha standing majestically in the centre+

Language comedies on the return trip.

So today-Perfect!!!!

Until later 🙂

The best love story I ever read

October 4, 2010 / / 4 Comments

Hey all,

This is an e-mail  that I got and I just started reading it as every other mail. However, by the end of it I had tears in my eyes,though I was sitting in my office. I wanted to record this for life and also share it with my friends.If, you are in a lovely relationship or if you are a person who will understand what a true relationship is, you will feel the essence of this story penetrating you. If you are not interested in emotions, just skip this post.

Love never fades, it only changes its shades

11th December 2010

The sun was playing hide and seek. The wind was chilly cold, it was 8 in the morning. She was sleeping by my side in the bed. I had switched on the light and she tried to cover her face with the blanket, but she can’t. As she hates to cover her face while sleeping. I switched off the light and her face seems to relax and a sweet smile appears on her face in that deep sleep, saying thank you to me. I slowly took out my SLR and tried to capture her smile 🙂 It looked the same as it was 5 years back.

11th December 2005

I still remember the day, it was 11th of December 2005. It was a Sunday. We were on our first outing after our marriage. We were in the valley of KASHMIR. Looking out of the glassed window. The whole earth was clad with white innocent snow. The snow resembled the smile of a small kid with a innocent smile, touching my soul and making me feel like going out and dance in it. Kashmir is so good and so peaceful in December(now don’t remind me of terror seeking groups, I am just speaking of the valley).

My room had a room heater, I could do anything but just to sulk in the warm cozy blanket.The room was filled with the essence of Hot elachi chai. I don’t drink tea but that’s her favorite, her morning starts with a hot elachi chai.She was lying next to me in the warm cozy bed, trying to pull the blanket up and cover her face as I have switched on the light in the room. This was the first time I noticed that she doesn’t like to cover her face while sleeping.

Time passed on and I knew her more and more.That elachi chai of hers is her favorite  which she calls pyala and my favorite was my morning kiss which she calls pyar ka pyala. Now I knew she hates to cover her face while sleeping and I loved that part of her sleep. Her face is never covered with the blanket which gives me the pleasure of looking at her anytime.I have seen the world in her face, I have seen her smile in her dreams and loved her even more by every day. Sometimes I see wrinkles on her forehead, I know she is tensed in her dreams and I would just shake her a bit to shatter such a dream which disturbs her peaceful night.

My desktops are filled with her pics with a sweet innocent smile which she portrays while she is dreaming a sweet dream, thanks to my SLR 🙂 I know her very well, she likes magenta color and would fight with me when I would say its pink. She likes elachi tea early morning, her pyala. She loves wearing pink but often picks up a blue dress as I love her in blue. She always chooses my happiness before hers. She cries like a kid while seeing some romantic  movie. She holds a special aroma of herself which mesmerizes me every day. She gets confused with numbers while calculating for anything and would need my help, for which I always get a kiss. I still remember our first fight, she went out and bought herself a calculator so that she won’t have any problem with calculation and won’t have to kiss me for her calculation problems. While on the weekend drive she will tell me every minute “its reverse ABC, Accelerator Brake Clutch”, as she would get confused which foot to place where and my heart would take a extra beat knowing that she is confused with the pedals, risking both our lives, but she won’t let me drive on the weekends. She is scared to death when it comes to needles and injection and would run away or fight with the doctor if I am not around to hold her and cool her down.

She loves puppies but hates when they pee inside the house. And as I am well mannered and I only use the bathrooms I am her puppy. She would play with me on a Sunday morning when I would be dying to catch some more sleep, but I love to be her puppy. I love the way she cuddles me like a mom cuddles a small baby. She sometimes forgets the recipe of what she is cooking and would scratch her head with the salt box in her hand standing in front of the gas stove. She loves animation movies. She has big eyes, which become even more beautiful when she applies kajal. She is full of life, yupieeeeeeeeeeee, I am too lucky to have her as my life :):):)

11th December 2007

We were expectine our angel.She was in admitted in the hospital and the doctor said that in few minutes the angel would be life 🙂 I was sitting outside the OT and thinking of names, I had thought of Midhu for my daughter and she had thought of Karan for her son. Lets see who will be born.Doctor came out rushing to me and said “the situation has gone critical and we can save only one of them, for the other it will be a risk. Whom you want the baby or the mother?” I couldn’t say a word I was in a shock and someone from either of our families or friends, I don’t know who, said “save the baby”. The doctor started to move back to the OT when I shouted at the top of my voice “NO” and everyone there rouse to their feet, people whispering stopped their whispers, the doctor stood still and everyone anticipated what I was gonna say next and I said it, “Save her, save my Arya, I want her, you can take a chance with the baby, but save my wife, my Arya” Doctor smiled back and went into the room.

I knew my Arya will help me get over this if anything happens to the baby, but she has loved the baby more than me, who will support her. And I knew that moment, I just can break at that moment, I have to stand by my Arya when she needs me the most.

Time stood still like a summer noon without any wind making me feel uncomfortable to even breathe. All I had was hope to support me nothing else seemed real, my world has blasted into small fragments of pain, sorrow and fear which was trying to suffocate me from all directions. It was then I heard my angel cry, a cry which cleared all the grey clouds around me and joy filled in every where around me. I cannot be more happy in my life than that moment, when I thought that the doctor saved my Arya and succeeded to save my angel. The doctor came out after some time and handed us the baby, she was an angel. Hurray!! my wish was fulfilled, she was a daughter my Midhu was born that day and not her Karan.

Everyone in the family started to compare her features with some or the other one, but I was sure of those eyes. Those big eyes, those lovely eyes were of my Arya. Every one held a smile as big as their heart, then the doctor permitted me to go in and speak to my Arya. My mom held my Midhu in her hands, while I walked into the OT. I was on cloud 9, we were gonna share the biggest happiness of our life ever since we met.

But I could sense a lot of blood in the OT, she has lost lot of blood in the operation, all my happiness seemed to fade. She was there on the bed, she had so many pipes and needles running in through her body, she hates and fears injection but she bared all this for our Angel. She held a smile that could strengthen me enough to fight the world with my last breath, but then I can see the pain that hid behind her smile. She kept that smile while I was no more able to with stand the site of hers in that way, i moved close and sat beside her. I could not speak a word but yet we spoke a million words. I could feel her pain, my body shivered for a moment and a tear rolled down my cheek on to her hand. Her smile changed a bit and i read her eyes, she asked me to lean forward, she took all her strength and rose a bit a kissed on my forehead.

For that one second I cursed her, cursed her like hell, why the hell does she care for me so much. Why the hell does she care for my happiness so much. I read her heart very well and I knew it that very moment and couldn’t control myself. She has taken the decision. Even before the doctor came to me I knew that she has asked the doctor to save the child risking her own life. She didn’t even think for once what will happen to me if anything happens to her. A zillion thoughts ran through my mind, was she safe or not and when i turned to the doctor all she said was “I am sorry, it was her decision”.

I will never forgive that doctor, i ll never forgive you my love, my life, my world, my Arya. In her last moment my Arya spoke to me “Happy na u have your midhu now, and don’t worry Vijay i ll always be there with you, I ll be your midhu if not your Arya anymore. You remember Vijay when we eloped and I told you that my dad would cry a lot and you used to make fun of me.Don’t worry, your Midhu wont elope with any guy, because I know you will be her friend first a father later.

Promise me that you will take her to the ice-cream parlor that we visit late night..
Promise me that you will teach her how to drive the way you did to me..
Promise me………..”
she took a lot of promises and left me for this life. I still don’t know why I am alive.I still don’t know how I ll take care of my Midhu who is also my Arya now.

Three years later

11th December 2010

I am at Kashmir, fulfilling one of the promises and living one of my best moments of life. Loving to know that she is just not my sweet little angel Midhu, she is my Arya too. As she too hates to cover her face while asleep,letting me get lost in her innocence and overloading my SLR with her one in a million, million pics.

When Life takes a complete U turn.
When life goes upside down.
When u are all alone in the middle of nowhere.
It’s then U find that, there is someone whom you love more than anyone else you ever loved in this world.

Love never fades, it only changes its shades. . .

Very true!

Until later 🙂

Hyderabad!

September 29, 2010 / / 4 Comments

Hey all,

It feels good to write after a long time. In the meanwhile, my life has taken a roller coaster ride and I have ended up at Hyderabad. So this post is just to make you catch up on my life (only if you want to ;))

Since CHN10AJ016 @ JAVA JUGGERNAUT, there were more special moments in the last few days at the training place. There were farewells as everyone got mapped to business units and the plans for travel, arranging for accommodation etc drove us through the rest of the days. I was one of the first few to leave for the business unit at Hyderabad (Actually I have updated a few more moments to my previous post.Have a look if you are interested :)).

Due to certain complications created both by myself and the company, when I left for Hyderabad, I had no idea of where my accommodation has been arranged, who my project manager was, what my project was and best of all, I actually started doubting if am mapped to the Hyderabad BU. This confusion was mainly created because of an intervening weekend which led to zero response from the company side. Yet I came here and somehow found all the necessary details (of course, after a hectic experience) and reported on the required date.

Fortunately, I got some good friends at Hyderabad who helped me out with everything. So now that I have settled with respect to work and hostel, I will be back to blogging (I guess 😉 ) This 2010 calendar year alone has rocketed me to 5 different cities till now. My travel map has touched Bangalore-Coimbatore-Trichy-Chennai-Hyderabad. I wonder what else is in store for me this year. I have been trying to do this post for the past one week, but uncertainty about work and PC at office prevented me from doing so.For now, work doesn’t demand much from me. Time will tell how am gonna survive in this corporate world.

Until later 🙂

CHN10AJ016 @ Java Juggernaut

August 20, 2010 / / 8 Comments

When I started my career on June 7, 2010, I never thought that this “CHN10AJ016” would mean to me this much. It all started out like a typical class, struggling for interaction. However, over a few days, our batch turned to be one of the best-interactive batches, in my opinion. The honorable reason for this is basically 1 person-Mohamed Sithik, fondly called the gangleader, batch topper, Sithik anna etc. This anna can survive without eating, but not without talking. With this initiative, Easwar, Sam, Deepak anna, Guru Prasad and others kicked off the perfect interaction, that I never managed to enjoy during college life (Which had been on my regret list for those 4 years).

There are special moments that cannot be confined to 1 post, but I will jot down a few which deserve the highest honor:

1. The daily fun that starts as Sithik anna and Sam start teasing Subaraj, Bino anna and Boopathi for any reason they can think of.

2. Nick names that are weird in every sense 🙂

3. The google group(ni-ju-yan) created for academic purposes, is used for evry other reason with a tinge of academic mails,that comes only from our trainer. 😛

4.The funny decorations that depicted something which  none of us understood till date.

5. Little thefts in the class (master-planned by sithik anna and Sam) that send the owner of the stolen things on a searching spree for the day.

6. The first batch outing, organized as an Outreach visit. It was definitely a lifetime experience. (More on this: https://ch1blogs/blogs/239434, but this link can be viewed only by people in my company)

7. The birthday parties and treats-Cakes, Gifts and the famous poetry on the greeting cards specially written for the birthday baby (This poetry is again gifts bestowed by aanmeenga kavignar Sithik and puratchi kavignar Sam) which make us laugh till we have tears in our eyes. 🙂

8. Special mention to August 19th,2010- Having ordered a cake for Sandhya,Vidya and Jagadeesh anna who shared their birthdays in the same week, Subaraj (surrounded by 5 aaruyir nanbargal to protect him) was bringing the huge box to our class. Since bringing edibles to class are not allowed, the security attempted to stop these guys. The thick friends of Suba vanished in a moment and Suba caught in a fight or flight situation decided upon the later. As the running race came to an end, the security had already caught up to our class with the help of walkie-talkies. Then, convincing the security that we really didn’t know that edibles were not allowed to class, is another big story. The real comedy was when the security later told us, actually it wouldn’t have been a problem if Suba had stopped and explained the situation to him and kept the cake in the pantry to be taken out later and enjoyed.

9. The food-craze that prevails among the guys, especially Easwar, Sithik anna and Sam(Occasionally accompanied by Deepak anna and Subaraj). Any edible stuff  is stuffed into their mouths even before their mind processes what the stuff is. The speed at which 1 glass of fresh lime juice goes poof with 5 straws is really worth mentioning.

10. The way these guys, find reasons and incidents to tease us (Lavanya and Sandhya are the all-time victims while me, Nargunadevi and Jayapriya are also pulled into the trap, now and then)

11. The fun sessions with Boopathi as the mediator The Dumb charades, The robot game,Tom and Jerry game (Actually Robot and Tom and Jerry became more of a hit session, as we start hitting the blind-folded person with paper balls) and Anthakshari. Also, the chris-mom and chris-child game that we played for the friends’ week led to funny tasks and funny gifts.

12. The podhu maathu for the topper of the respective assessments.

13. The days when our class guys take up umbrellas from the common umbrella bin, when it was neither hot nor rainy, singing “Antha vaanatha pola manasu irukka..” for Bino anna.

14.CRICAT’10 brought me rewards which I didn’t deserve 😉 and I got new friends through Sam. I never thought I will go to a cricket match even as a substitute, but it happened.

15.The beatings that Sam and Easwar will get from us, especially me, with Deepak anna giving slight hints as of how to beat them more effectively.

16.The silly fights and sentimental talks 😉 (Sam, this one’s for you)

17.Among all chaos, the sleep that Jegadeesh anna enjoys invariably(Deepak anna too, but the difference is Jegadeesh anna will do when all others are playing and Deepak anna will do when the class is going on :))

18.The precious last few days at SFEW01 with me, Boopathi, Sam playing arm wrestling and of course, I got beaten in all the matches 🙁

As these days narrowed down and as people started to leave to explore their career elsewhere, I felt one of the best times of my life coming to an end. I am surprised at how soon Monday-morning-blues became Friday-evening-blues, as we started feeling bored on weekends. I cannot do justice to these wonderful days, how much ever I write as it is too short a period, yet too long for the amount of fun we had. All I can say is, CHN10AJ016 is unforgettable for me.

Only photos and videos are left to relive those moments. I am reminded of this famous forward-“ Life is so unfair. First, it gives us so much time to know each other. Then, when we know each other well, we don’t have enough time to be together”. This has happened more than once in almost all of our lives and this time, words are not enough to describe the impact.

Until later:)

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