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The edibly inedible

Today’s the first day I ever cooked with absolutely no supervision, with none to ask the ways, the measurements or whatsoever silly doubts I had.  There have been times when I have cooked with my friend(s), but we had each other to back on and it was always the maggi-scrambled eggs-tadkawaali curd rice-mash potato version which can hardly be called cooking. Today’s the first solo. For the first time in my life, I got what my mom meant by “You can’t learn cooking by writing down recipes and having theoretical knowledge, only practice will teach you.” I used to shrug it off saying that I will cook when it’s necessary and that I will write all her recipes down and follow it to the word. What can go wrong when I follow everything  as she says? How naïve was I!

I opted for the simplest of dishes for the first day – rava upma for breakfast and rice, sambar and a beans curry for lunch. I started out at 6.30 and when the clock struck 7.30, I was staring at 3 dishes with a pout on my face. The upma was glaring at me dryly for not adding enough oil, while the beans curry was having a sour look for adding a bit too much salt and the sambar was laughing at me since I didn’t know if it was spicier than I intended or not. I wouldn’t say they were inedible but for a foodie like me, they seemed like the end of the world.

Well, hubby dearest was the only tester available and I called him to check if it was at least agreeable to his stomach if not for his taste buds. Being a very accommodating person when it comes to food, he granted a pass to everything (he gives a pass to any home-made food as long as they are not spicy) while my taste buds gave everything a fail. Cooking is no joke without practice, fellas! Not at all! I can’t express how much I miss mom and her expert cooking. What she does in the kitchen is pure magic and here I am, like a muggle.

A dream of 10 years

I cannot just say it was a dream come true. It was a dream of 10 years. A tree we both had planted as a sapling and nurtured for. Even now, it feels too good to be real. We both kept asking each other “Has it sunk in for you?” and the answer was and is still no. It’s the reality of taking up the responsibilities and managing both office and home that’s keeping my feet on the ground.

It was a journey that had literally everything – Happiness, sadness, anger, joy, love, fights, heart breaks, life altering decisions, commitments, problems, solutions and what not! You name and we had it in our relationship. Yes, love is not just a fairy tale. It takes a lot to keep it up and I learned that well.

After so many twists and turns in my story, there was the day. Finally! Feb 9, 2014. I couldn’t sleep the previous night due to a lot of factors – tension due to the thriller adventure my marriage story took and excitement that the big day was just hours away being the major ones. My friends forced me to sleep saying that I should get some beauty sleep and finally I dozed off. The day arrived in a swirl and swept me off. I got ready and came to the temple which was the marriage venue. I was so restless since I had arrived before him and I didn’t take my eyes away from the entrance. Only when I saw him, my lips curved and the smile came out. The one that reached from my heart to my eyes.

After that everything went so fast and before we could realize, he had tied the mangalyam around my neck. After that nothing mattered to me, everything went in a fit of emotions and blur. I didn’t care, I couldn’t even if I tried. The only thought in my mind was “We have done it.”. The marriage being a simple ceremony helped in many ways since the tediousness was reduced to a great extent and we were still fresh for the grander reception which followed a short while after.

The trip to Delhi and Agra was indeed a romantic one with a visit to the Taj Mahal being the heights of it 😉 Now being back to Bangalore and having joined office, the routine work and added responsibilities have brought us back from the clouds. Still, everyday I wake up with a smile, knowing that I am with him. Good or bad, we are in it together and that’s exactly what we wanted for the rest of our lives.

Here’s a peek into the biggest day of my life! 🙂

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Until later 🙂

Here comes…

Today I leave Bangalore as a Ms. only to return in a couple of weeks as a Mrs.

After so much drama, anticipation, struggle the month of February is here and the 9th of the month is inching closer. How do I feel? It’s a cocktail of emotions I cannot express with words. I am in no state to write a detailed post about this, so you will get the details only when I open this blog as a certain Mrs 😛

Until later 🙂

I know!

Sometimes the answer is right in front of your eyes. But you don’t see it. Maybe because you cannot or maybe because you don’t want to or maybe because it is not the easy choice. However when you do see it, it shines brightly in your face. You feel like you have known all along that it is the only path you would have to go. That it is the only choice you would make even if it is the most difficult thing in the world. You might have been blinded by the dilemma of doing the easy thing or doing the right thing, for in life, most often than not the easy thing and the right thing are not the same.

Despite all this, the right thing you have to do will eventually come to you and you will slowly accept the fact that even though it is the most difficult decision you have to make in your life, even though it posed a threat that everything would fall apart except that one thing which is your life,  you will have to take it because that’s what you would want yourself to do when you look back. None of the other troubles would matter. Only this decision. If you decide this right, you will die without regrets even if you didn’t have anything else in the world.

My friend casually said “Your world cannot be torn apart unless it is from the inside”. It struck me like a lightning. It made me see what I never saw despite so many explicit advices and suggestions. And I know if the sides were reversed, I would be bestowed with the right decision and not the easy decision. I know I would be cherished. I know I would be protected like a child in a mother’s womb if I were on the other side of the coin. So I know what to do now. I know I have to choose the right path even if it is laid with thorns and stones. I know I would want myself to have my heart in place even if every other part of my body is bruised in the journey. There is no use having everything intact and a broken heart.

Nothing else matters when you know what you want. That one thing is the quintessence of your life. Everything else takes a back seat. I am glad I got that clarity. It’s gonna be a hard ride but I am all geared up. I know, now!

Until later 🙂

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