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Mental(ly)

If there is one thing which is messed up beyond repair, it is the human mind. And we somehow manage to mess it up even more. So here goes the story of my mind giving me a hard time. To give you a preview of the show, I must tell you this – My mind thinks too much and all in the wrong direction. It will come up with the weirdest of all interpretations for anything, will get bummed up for no reason, will torture me with its pointless frustrations when I really have some useful job to do. So now you know that I am totally unable to control my mind. That’s enough preview. 😉

So, here comes. Up until recently, I cannot visualize things at will. For instance, when I go for shopping I would be totally unable to try to visualize the kurti I am holding in my hand against my jean in my cupboard back home. Color against color match or mismatch? No. Trying to visualize the design pattern? No. And hence I never shopped without a companion who excells in such stuff and they would do the mental movie playing part and give their approvals or otherwise. Then out of the blue, I found during my last shopping spree that my mind is able to do that . Not always. But flashes of it. More like, it does that when it really likes a dress I am considering to buy. But when I try it at will, it gives me a very hard time. The experience would be something like trying to reach something which is just their one minuscule beyond the tip of my fingers but am unable to reach it. 😐

The next thing is, well this requires a sub-preview. You must know that I cannot dance at all. No. Not one step. Not one move. I still remember the day when I had to (read was forced to) do at least one dance move during the Industrial Visit trip in college and I made a complete fool of myself being unable to 😳 . Moving on, people have told me to just let go and dance even if it is clumsy. I have got this advice a lot. Believe you me, I try. I have wanted to dance at such times. But no. There is absolutely zero body-mind co-ordination. So I came to terms with the fact that I cannot dance [Hoping that there will never come a time where I am held at gun point and asked to dance]. *Preview Over* (Enough 🙄 , move on)

Recently, when I hear peppy numbers, my mind starts to dance, if I may phrase it that way. Remember it is the mind and not me. It is as if there is another me inside which is doing the dancing part. No, I am not just visualizing someone/myself dancing, instead I feel my mind doing the dance. When I try to catch hold of what it is doing, it is as slippery as an eel. If I try and do it again on purpose, there are flashes but never the whole picture. It drains me. It is like learning Occlumency from Snape. 😯 The crazier thing is my mind is so far able to do its awesome dance only for peppy numbers. [I am not exaggerating when I say awesome, yesterday it did a superb choreography for “Everybody tells me” from “Another Cinderella story”. That’s gotta be something.] So when I am listening to melodies, or songs which have lyrics depicting the situations, my mind tries to do something and obviously fails. And I have to go through the ordeal of watching the clumsy attempts which leaves me more drained. 😐

Now tell me, isn’t my mind the best place to be? 😈 In case you are Sheldon Cooper and didn’t get it, that was sarcasm for you! Re-read the title of this post. I should be removing that (ly) right? Well, I am not gonna 😛

What do you say? Alter-ego? Might be, for who knows!

Until later 🙂

Honoured

Ajay Kontham at The Shaded Shadows has generously awarded me The Creative Blogger award

Creative Blogger

As I told him, I do not know if I deserve it as the supply of my creative juices are very limited. However, I receive this award with thanks as there is nothing more inspiring and boosting to a blogger than a compliment 🙂

Here goes the process (Ajay has made it as simple as possible and I thank him for that) And as usual, I do not stress that bloggers whom I nominate should take up the process but that’s what makes the award more fun. So it’s up to you people who wanna keep it running.

1. Thank the blogger and Link back to the blog.
2. a. Three things about yourself
b. Two things People don’t know about you.
c. One thing you want to change about yourself.
3. Answer the questions asked by the blogger.
4. Nominate this award to the deserving blogs. Pass it on.
5. Ask some questions to the bloggers who got nominated.
6. Inform the bloggers about their award.

Here’s my take:

1. – Thank you Ajay, once again!

2. a. 3 things about myself:
i. Sleep and Food are the things that I can’t give up and hence the resolution to lose some weight goes down the drain.
ii. I love colorful and shiny stuff. In any supermarket, I get attracted to the kids section as they are so colorful and lovely.
iii. I love music, books, nature and myself 😛

b. 2 things people don’t know about you:
i. Call me silly, but I love doing documentation. Many would consider writing emails, proof-reading stuff for friends to be monotonous and irritating work, but not me. I love those kind of things. I am wondering if I should have made a career out of that. (If you are a keen observer, you would have figured out by the way I write posts ;))
ii. I have emotional flares. Any emotion will come and go like the waves. Good or Bad – It won’t stay for too long.

c. 1 thing you want to change about yourself:
i. Obsession over things. I don’t let go easily. If I could do that, I would be happier.

3. Questions by Ajay:

What is the one word that comes to your mind when you hear the following words/phrases? (Make it like a rapid fire round – Mention the first word that strikes you! And if you make if fast, it would be cool.)

a. World-Reboot
b. Life – Love
c. Awards – Happy
d. School – Memories
e. Love – Life
f. Books – Awesome
g. Death – Peace
h. Work – Confused
i. Sports – Swimming
j. (Your Name) – Unique
k. Dog – Cute
l. Parents – Family
m. My Blog (as in Ajay’s blog) – Variety
n. Chocolates – Yummy
o. Me/The Author/Ajay – Different

4. Nominate some bloggers. Pass it on. I have tried to nominate a few of my favourite reads and at the same time who have not been nominated already. Here goes:

Maithz at On such story
Visha at Zack and Me
Vinati at Mirage
Uma at My Musings
Soumya at Life of Leo
Shreya at Life Unlimited
Smita at Pages From, Diary of a Lost Girl
Blahblaholic at Teenage Babblings and Tales of her and by her
Phatichar at Malignant humor in my head

5. I am competing with Ajay to make this easy. 😛 So here is my one task to the bloggers I nominated:

‘Beauty’ – Write whatever comes to your mind about this word. It could be just another word which will describe it best or it could be another post in full detail. Anything. Any number of word(s).

Hope I have outrun Ajay in making it easier 😛

6. On it immediately after publishing this post.

Until later,
Keirthana 🙂

To the missing day!

This post is a toast to the day that comes every 4 years and an awesome guy who was born on that day in 1984!

To the best bro in the world,

As every non-leap-year February ends, I am confused of how and when to wish you a happy birthday. It doesn’t feel like your birthday. Feb 28 is not your birthday nor is March 1. Your day is as special as you – the 29th of Feb. Mom has told me that she was in labor almost 1 full day when she gave birth to you. She was admitted to hospital on Feb 28 but you made her wait until the next day 😉 To be born on that special day that comes only every four years on calendar. Remember how I used to nag mom about why she did not give birth to me on such a special day? 🙂

It was so much fun growing up with you. Remember how we used to play tag in the lengthy halls of our monumental home? The piggy back rides you used to offer in exchange for me not telling on you.. All those snacks you tricked me into sharing with you after having finished your share already.. All those running around to avoid beatings from mom after our fights – Actually, it was you running around and me getting caught! All those sneak sessions when we steal snacks from where mom had hidden them. All those crazy nick names and funny faces you came up with to annoy me. Those days when you were crazy about Rajinikanth – specially his film ‘Basha’. Remember when you used to yell ‘Basha!!!’ (imitating the background score of the movie) all of a sudden and cause me and mom to jump up?

Pestering grandpa for the macaroons that he buys specially for us (well, actually you! I always had the feeling that you were grandpa’s favorite.) was yet another pass time. He used to take only you to the movies, while I wail my lungs out refusing all explanations from mom that I am too young to go to the movies. The school days when you used to feel awkward acknowledging that you had a little sister to look after! Well, you were in that adolescent age when your friends’ opinions mattered more and you feared they might tease you for some or the other thing that I do 😛 Remember how you tried to teach me Maths and I would nod along every time even though I didn’t understand a word? That went well until you asked me to solve a problem after teaching me once and my pretense went down the drain.

As if in return, you used to be stiff about English and I got through English exams so easily. Dad used to tease you saying that when you prepared for the English exam, even Shakespeare would come down from the skies to help you. You used to shout your lungs out that much in the process of learning ‘The Merchant of Venice’. Remember how many hundreds of times you recited that one sentence ‘I watched more carefully that time where the second arrow fell’? How much ever I tried, I could never forget that sentence in my life 😛

I always wonder how you got off dad’s hook and I got caught every single time. Any time we do some mischief together, dad’s entry would be just after you finished it. Seeing you do it, I would have just started to try it out – Bam! Dad would enter, I would get the scolding and you would do the smirking!

I don’t remember the day we stopped fighting, do you? I guess the transition was phased out, maybe as you went off to college. You used to come home once a while and we didn’t have enough time to even catch up on each others’ lives and slowly fighting was off the list. During your college days, you used to have different interests every time you came home. It was singing (read yelling :P), then dancing, then gym, then something else… But the bottom line was whatever thing it was you were experimenting I was always the patient audience (also the experimental rat :P) for your shows. I still remember that day when you showed me how a dance step was done in a certain movie and when mom entered the room suddenly, you immediately sat down cross-legged and started pretending as if you were doing nothing! I was/am your confidante always and I am proud of it! 😛 You used to tell stories about your college life while I pressed your legs. You owe me many one rupee coins for those leg-pressing sessions, you cheater! 😛 How naïve and silly of me to think of getting a one rupee from you in return for pressing your legs.

We have always had a different relationship unlike most brothers and sisters. We never wished each other properly on occasions, never got each other surprise gifts. We would just have a hard time mumbling ‘Happy Birthday’ to each other. And when the whole world goes crazy around Raksha Bandan, we don’t even wish each other and the greatest part is we both don’t think we need a specific day to protect our bond. Remember that day when I went off to college? As per family tradition, I got blessings from all the elders of our home and dad asked me to get from you too. Though awkward, I tried to touch your feet and get blessings (for the sake of dad’s peace) and you jumped up and down as if you had seen a rat. 😛 Formalities are just not for us! We can just be ourselves around each other without all these.

Ahhhh… To remember all these, it gives an elated feeling. I could go on writing. No amount of words would be enough to finish writing about you. Happy Birthday Anna! I have to wait 2 more years to wish you on your actual birth date! 😛

Hope this long mushy post makes up for all the 24 years that I have known you!  Wishing you a happy birthday as you finish 29 successful years. Wish you get all that you dream for in life. You are the best bro in the world!

Love,
Keirthu

I am posting after 23:59 hrs and before 00:00 hrs, the closest I can get – somewhere between 23:59 hrs of 28th Feb and 00:00 hrs of 1st March lies hidden, my bro’s birthday for this year 🙂

Until later,
Keirthana 🙂

Yes or No

I have a weird habit. I always ask contradicting questions. Especially when I am on the office communicator.

Yes or No?Image: Googled

Say, I need some clarity on creating a document. I ping my colleague as below:
‘Do we need screenshots for the instructions? Or just instruction steps will suffice?’

When the reply comes as ‘Yes’, I am confused whether the yes was for the former question or the latter. Going by experience, it would be for the first question. Still, there is a possibility that I am mistaken. I am unable to control it. Can’t I just ask ‘Do we need screenshots?’. Thereby not confusing my colleague and myself. It just irritates me so much but I realize it only after I have done the damage. Every single time!

Until later 🙂

Chocolate

It was right there in front of her eyes, dark brown and silky. It never once failed to cheer her up. She visualized the experience of that warm delicious feeling. She was tempted to reach out, to touch and to let go of all the inhibitions. Her mind reminded her of her resolution to diet.

Until later,
Keirthana 🙂

P.S: My first and poor attempt at a Fiction 55. Please bear with it 🙂

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