எத்தனை துன்பங்கள் வந்தாலும் எத்தனை தடைகள் வந்தாலும் எனக்கு கவலை இல்லை, ஏனென்றால் நான் 100 முறை ஜெயித்தவன் அல்ல, ஆயிரம் முறை தோற்றவன்!
அடுத்த முறை வரை,
கீர்த்தனா 🙂
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There are times when you look back at your life and don’t recognize yourself doing all those things which you once did..
We always want what is not in our hands. And if by life’s grace we get what we want, we just find something new to long for. Reflecting on life – I have done a lot of this subconsciously and I have had a lot of realizations but I have to honestly accept that they have not yet sunk in or rather the skewed human mind doesn’t allow the sink in process. You know that this is how things are and will be, yet the human nature does not accept it. Acceptance is a big deal – Acceptance of everything, the past, the present and the future. I never gave it a second thought before. Now that I know how important it is and how many problems it will solve, I want to embrace it. I try every single day. When I get up in the morning, I tell myself “Accept life! It has never failed you, though you might have misunderstood that it had during some tough times.” It is just harder than it sounds but I intend to keep trying. Also, the flashes of nostalgia about one’s life so far gives a very different perspective of how things are and how things should be.
There was a time when I had nothing but tears and fear in my heart about Hyderabad. There was a time when I got used to the city and whiled away the time in neutrality.
There was a time when I wanted nothing else in my life than to get out of the city.
Then there was a time when I started to think that the Hyderabad episode was not that bad.
Then there came a time when I realized that I had an awesome life there and just that I didn’t realize it back then.
There was a time when my first company seemed so special.
There was a time when I didn’t care about it.
There was a time when I started thinking that I am getting nothing out of it and wanted to just get out.
Then there came a time when I realized how much the company has shaped up my life even beyond my career and today I tell people I was treated like a queen back then.
There was a time when I entered my new company with excitement.
This is the time when the excitement has turned into fear because I have to meet up with a lot of expectations.
And I know there will come a time when I look back and laugh at myself for having feared about such things.
I wrote the these lines just to come back here in future and check how I feel about them! I have seen myself and many other people always just reaching out for the next step. It is fine as long as we take a moment to be thankful for where we are now. Every person’s life, if written down, will start somewhere and will end at a place which is nothing like the starting point. Sometimes, I find myself wanting to be in that comfort zone without getting out because of insecurities. I know it is not right. So, I chide myself and move on. This post is for the people who think they have achieved nothing so far and feel insecure. Think back on your “Once upon a time” moments and you will know how far you have come. It is good to think back as long as you remember that there is a tomorrow that you cannot avoid 😉
Until later,
Keirthana 🙂
Wish you all a happy 2013 and hoping that 2013 brings us a better year than 2012 did. Have fun 🙂
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Here I am again after umpteen thoughts about shutting the blog since I have gotten too busy or making it private or trying harder to blog more and all that jazz. Jeez, I could never decide when it comes to this space, I always feel like there is more to it. Whatever, I don’t seem to be able to decide on it, so I write when I write and that’s it.
My Dec 2012 has been like a toss in the tsunami, all the while me battling it with the little swimming skills that I have.
Made my first company switch. Had to go through the stress of it and frankly still struggling to settle in. Guess it will take its own time and hence gave up trying too hard.
Underwent Zyoptix surgery due to my dad’s compulsion and frankly, the post-surgery is a little a lot annoying. I didn’t have any trouble with my specs but apparently my dad did and I thought -“OK, what the hell, it is just one day’s effort” I was proved wrong. The idiot that I am, I discussed about the surgery and the preparations for it with friends who had done it but never bothered about the post-surgery effort, which is a looooooooooooooooot. There are only so many eye drops your eyes can take. And yeah, I miss my specs. I keep touching the bridge of my nose in the pretext of adjusting my specs only to find that I no longer wear them. Jeez, now that it is over, I know I am crying over spilt milk but I want to be able to cry over that!
Secretly hoped that the world would end in one big flash but as usual life disappointed me 😛
Recently started watching Big bang theory and man, I am loving it. Being the F.R.I.E.N.D.S. fanatic that I am, I never thought I’d bring myself up to even try another sitcom but I’m glad that I did.
Totally pissed off with the government’s laid back attitude with regards to the crime against women but yeah this is the Indian government and who am I kidding? They will form their committees and take their time while the victims are left to die. Damn, this is why I wish world could just reboot and start over.
2012 held no promises for me and tortured me a lot, but in hindsight I gotta say, it taught me a lot, more than any other year has taught me. 2013 holds many promises but I do not want to get excited or hyper about it because my life has a deal with Murphy and they get along so well when it comes to annoying me.
Read the “The time of my life” by Cecelia Ahern and gotta say, the book rocked. It is a kind of book which you can put down to take a break, but you would not want to. And it made me laugh aloud when I had forgotten what laughter was. That and the big bang theory – I owe these both big time and of course to Cecelia Ahern and to the guy who introduced me to big bang theory 😉
Happy 2013 to all of you 🙂 Hoping for a miracle-a better world, but what’s wrong in hoping? 😉
That’s all I wanted to say and yeah, just one more thing-stick around 🙂
Until later 🙂
The title says all that I really wanna say because I am going on a holiday for a fortnight 🙂 The switch in companies is giving me a little something to enjoy. However, at the moment my mind is worried about a lot of things. It is resisting the change and hence am officially freaked out. The final settlements in my current company are keeping me on my toes. Man, it is really frustrating when you see the treatment you receive when you say you have decided to leave the organization. No responses for queries, No reply mails, No answer to calls. I was an employee for 2.5 years right? I know it is like this everywhere but the question is why is it like that? Nobody has an answer to that.
Anyway, I am trying my best to ignore the resistance that comes naturally as a part of any change. Going home and spending quality time with my family will definitely help, though will be missing my bro badly. Have a lot of stuff on the to-do list. Hoping to complete everything and come back with a freshened up spirit 🙂 Let us see 🙂
See all guys in about 2 weeks 🙂 Diwali wishes in advance since I won’t know if I will have much internet access at my home town, even more, not sure if I will have the time. Have fun, folks!
Until later 🙂
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