It’s definitely good to be back in Tamil Nadu 🙂 Being at home for 4 days was a heavenly feeling. To my mom’s surprise, I helped her a bit in doing the chores. I was even more excited about coming to college. When I entered college after a month’s absence, I started feeling nostalgic and all that stuff. However, since nothing at college has changed, I consoled myself with the thought that it’s just like being back after a long holiday. For the past 3 days, I have been giving myself the luxury of enjoying life as it goes. Sleeping, chatting with friends and stuff 🙂 Today, I have my 1st project review scheduled at 3.00 p.m and I am not sure if am prepared or not. However,this is not a new situation to me. I guess, I will be getting the usual – “What is the ultimate aim of this project? What is your role? We don’t think this is application oriented. We don’t know how far this will be successful”. So I have mentally prepared myself to take up anything that is being directed at me, with a smile. Also the greatest confusion is about the NDA that I have signed at the company. The people at the company restrict me not to let out anything about the project. However, obviously, none can finish a presentation without giving a few details at the least. So I have just prepared my presentation trusting my instincts. Waiting to see how it goes. Keeping my fingers crossed. 🙂
Year: 2010 (Page 8 of 8)
The people who are most pitiable on earth (or at the least in Tamilnadu) are the students who are about to enter college. All the news that are permitted to enter their ears is crap about idiotic colleges and stupid courses. Why the hell do others bother so much about your college and course? There will be a sudden traffic of advice constantly coming in until you doubt your sanity.
Coming to the point, there will be loads and loads of crap about ECE and top institutions (say,PSG.In my case it was CEG and PSG).However, when you get into one of the “TOP” institutions with an ECE seat in hand and castles built in heart,you are in for a surprising-shocking-devastating whatever.All will not be well.There will be three reasons that will be listed for ECE being advised as a cream course and certain colleges as top institutions.
For ECE:
1. It is the trend and you have good placements(OMG,Come and see for yourself)
2.You can have a blend of software and hardware and hence you have more options in placements(Definitely not!!)
3.Good choice for higher studies(This point is too mute to be explained.Higher studies option is there for any course)
For Colleges:
1.Good coaching(An example will suffice.All I learnt in LabVIEW from my respectful teacher is how to arrange the blocks on the front panel and the block diagram with an aesthetic sense and nothing else.Now I find out what a great role LabVIEW has in the automation industry from my uncle.Good coaching huh?)
2.Placements(This depends on the college,its placement officer and the alumni strength of the college. For my college,I am quite satisfied with this factor)
3.Exposure(This depends partly upon the student and her/his interests.Even if you study in a local college,if you have real interest you can do well without the cream exposure. I have seen live examples for this in my family and many others too)
Let me tell you,when my interviewer asked me “Why did you choose ECE?” or “Being in ECE, why are you choosing this software company?” I will feel like-“If you want the truth,don’t ask me”. Yet,my career being at stake,all I could manage was a weak smile and blabber about something related to linking hardware and software.Most of the ECE students have to go for software companies,because the few core companies that come wont need more than the top 8-10 students at the maximum.Why on earth,should I take an ECE course for getting placed in a software company competing with CSE,IT,Software Engg people. I could as well have taken up CSE or the like.
When I was asked “Why did you choose PSG?”, my mind went even more blank and I managed with just the usual “one of the top institution” crap. Honestly I don’t have an answer to these questions.I took ECE in PSG because I was expected to do so.I wish that I had been in more control in deciding my career path. 🙁 So,whatever is in the minds of post-higher secondary advisers is just notions that have been proved wrong by our lives.Hoping earnestly that this should change. 😐
People often look back at their lives once they have travelled a bit, either to find themselves longing for previous moments or happy to have come across troubles or a combination of both. As for me,it’s a combination of both, that too swinging from one extreme to another so fast. The best part of my life according to me, as of now, is my school life till 10th std. I never seemed to have real troubles other than arguing with my dad to make things happen my way. However, at that age, those trivial problems seemed so troublesome and now I can do with a laugh at myself for being so silly. For example,the most interesting part of my farewell day is the story of my tears. I was crying uncontrollably, actually everyone was,but for emotional reasons of parting friends.However my tears were due to the fact that I had done something to my camera which seemed to have lost consciousness. I had fought with my dad that I was capable of handling the camera.:( So finally, the headmistress herself sent her secretary to a photo studio to set my camera right(Actually I had pressed the rewind button, which caused some problem. Cha, it would have been better if it was a digital camera. All the trouble for nothing).The school was our kingdom and we,the 10th students,were our own rulers. I don’t even remember studying too much,yet got interestingly good marks.
After 10th std, there was some change in my attitude or environment or whatever,I still don’t know.I did not like my higher secondary school,not even to the tiniest bit (Mainly because of the uniform,the mentality of staff and co-students,pressure on mugging up crap and the list goes on).So I did not bother to mingle with the new environment which earned me a title-“Arrogant”.I still did not bother and I crossed the higher secondary life without having a real stand, i.e., I just got used to the life and lived it.However, getting used to is not what I enjoy,though it’s the safest way in many situations.The way people create certain illusions about the studies and about getting into “a good college” is really absurd.Now I seriously regret that I was in a situation to be led by those pre-determined opinions.Moreover,I seemed to have developed a tendency to be confused about every single decision that I had to take during this period of time.I would decide upon something,then regret it,then correct it and so on.I would even fear to try out new things,being so confused and on a negative confidence level.Thinking of all these now,I can just let out a huge sigh and wish that I had done better in many aspects.Really,the quote- “Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have” is 100% true(Courtesy: Friend’s facebook profile).
P.S: The story of my nostalgia and regrets in college life deserves a separate story that will be quite lengthy. I will try to blog it out when I can.
Its great to be back after 10 days. Due to some server problem, I could not use the internet as I used to. I got to know the difficulty of being away from internet when the world wide web has spun its cobwebs tightly around. Also I feel it even greater because I don’t have net access at office. People at my office justify that it is for confidentiality and my mind was screaming like-“Fools, what the hell?”. As if I am going to upload my “not-yet-properly-started” project on the web or as if I am gonna reveal all their works. Whatever! Now as I am going to move to a PG soon, this is gonna get even more difficult. I have said no to “plug-to-surf” option because of a variety of reasons (For example, its just 2 more months here at the maximum). So browsing centers are the only way to catch up for now. So I am gonna be a regular user rather than a daily user.
Since my aunt and uncle are going on a trip to Singapore,I have to move to a hostel here at Bangalore.Though I have a feeling-“Ah!At last,all by myself”,I am a little confused and bewildered.This is mainly due to the loss of few comforts and the gain of few at the same time.To say,I don’t know how far I will be able to access internet(Since I don’t have access to internet at office 🙁 ).Also,I don’t know if I will be able to convince my dad to get me a “plug to surf” connection.Apart from that,there’s always the problem of food,expenses and all that. On the other side, I have unlimited freedom of exploring places,things and getting settled with the city.However,a small guilty feeling of making my dad spend more(though necessarily) is residing in the corner of my mind.Though my dad always says-“Education is the first priority for any human and I will give anything to make sure that my children have the best of it”, I could not get over it.That’s a passing feeling that comes and goes,since I was a kid(i.e., whenever I make him spend too much for me).I have made up my mind to get the best out of this opportunity to improve myself in all possible aspects(??????? ???? ??????????????????????) It’s okay. So off to find my free way and I don’t know how I will manage my Blogging,Facebooking(Oh my god!Who will look after my aquarium on Facebook??),Tweeting etc after moving to the hostel.So people, be with me even if I come back after a long time.
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