Pre.S: I have written something that makes complete sense to me but that might not be the case with you. Now, you cannot say that I didn’t warn you. Read at your own risk. 😉
A thin line. That’s all there is to life. Between every pair of opposites. Between happiness and sadness. I look through the frame and see how a few words can turn me into the most happy person on earth and how the lack of them makes me feel that life sucks big time. A thin line between comfort and discomfort. I see how 2 strangers who are going to share my room for the next weeks make me so comfortable as opposed to my normal discomfort in such cases. I also see the reason that is behind this, which is, I have experienced what it is to be lonely. And so now I appreciate even the strangers’ presence and constant babble. A very thin line between love and hate. I can see how I can so easily hate something that I love very much. A very thin line between feeling assured and anxiety. That thin line’s timing is less than a second. A blink is all it takes to make you feel assured and vice-versa.
A simple “I am there for you” can wash away the emptiness that is eating you from inside. Weakness and strength-separated by a thread. When I feel so weak, apparently I end up showing more strength. Nothing but survival instinct. Looking back, my most feared moments have proved I have been the bravest in my life during those moments. How mingled tears and laughter are. You cry when you are really sad and you cry when you are really happy. It is the threshold that when tipped over thrusts you into the opposite dimension with full force at a speed that’s so fast that you never know what hits you. A smile turns into a frown in a matter of a second. Darkness and light are reversed with one flick of a switch, even in our minds and not just in the outside world.
Always at the brim. Ready to overflow. One more drop, the tank starts flowing and never stops. It is always the way with emotions. There is no mastering them. If you think you have mastered emotions, it is just that you have not met your match and that’s why. When the tipping point is crossed, there is nothing to do but to tip over and fall headlong into the positive pit or the negative pit. Which you fall into is decided by life. Either way both pits are bottomless.
Until later 🙂
Post.S: If you understand what I have written, well, I am glad that there is one more person who feels so. If you don’t get it and think “what a load of crap!”, well, I apologize.