I am sitting alone, thinking about my life so far and my life ahead. The room is so silent and the rhythmic creaking of my fan is such an habitual sound to me that it doesn’t disturb the silence for me. 25 years of life and already I am out of breath due to the mad race. Yes, I have a few precious persons in my life who save me from the madness that is the world and I know to appreciate them. There are some things in life that keep it going, motivating me to push on.
All that aside, there have been moments when I think what am I doing here? What’s the purpose of me being here at this moment? A lot of philosophical mess is there in my mind and taking advantage of the same, my mind just takes control and spews random thoughts out all the time. There are many things to enjoy, a lot of things to write about, a lot of books to read, a lot of challenges to face and so on. But do we realize the enormity of it? If yes, do we realize it on time? How many times do we take things for granted? How many times are we lost in this huge ocean of life?
We are forced to change constantly. We hate it, face it and somehow do it in the end since there’s no other choice. What if we let go of the inhibitions and take it a bit more positively? What if we know that life’s hard but decide to just face it instead of moping around? Is it as easy as it sounds? We’ll never know until we try it. Maybe it’s easier than we thought or maybe it’s harder than we thought. At any point, we never know what’s at the end of the road. What we are shown is just the next step or sometimes even the next step is hidden in darkness. But should that stop us from trying? If so, what’s the point of even navigating till the end of the tunnel? We can just sit wherever we are and get run over 😉 But we don’t wanna do that, right? We want to keep going ahead. So taking the next step is an essential one. Amidst all the chaos is the calm we are searching for.
Until later 🙂
It gives me chills too when I start questioning the reason behind my existence. It is scary. Makes me feel so small and irrelevant.
True, but I guess we need to accept the fact that we are one small part of this monstrous universe and what matters is how we live out our part no matter how small it is.
I hope you find that calm among all the chaos.
Take Care. 🙂
As I said, it’s hard. And when I think I got out of something, I get into something else 😛
No escaping it 🙂
I know how it feels when we introspect. You called it right “the mad race” – and yet, when we don’t really seek it, we find peace. 🙂
Love the new look! 🙂
Thanks for dropping by, dear. Was trying to locate you blog sometime back but couldn’t. Guess I’d locate it now with you details 🙂
It is basic human nature, this existential crisis. Also it is natural for us humans to try to acquire as much as possible, knowledge, wealth, love, everything. As hard as it may seem we must learn to make peace with.
A fellow contemplative human.
Your words are very true, Srikanth. Thanks for your time 🙂 Hope you’d come for more.
Do not question. Just live. That is the calm you are looking for 🙂
That’s the spirit I admire in you! Thanks lioness 🙂
Welcome to the club 🙂
🙂 Glad there’s company in the club, at the least 😛
Can totally relate to the ‘chaos’ and ‘the mad race’. It is said that the journey is as important as the destination. Try to rid yourself of doubts and plunge into the ocean of “Life”. Inner peace may be just around the corner.
I have taken the plunge as you said but the doubts are still weighing me down.. Trying to become free of them… Yes, I hope that inner peace should be around the corner 🙂
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