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Everything in it’s place and a place for everything

After a long break, this space seems to be so warmly welcoming me. It has really been a time of jam-packed schedule and still is. However, this time, I chose to break the pattern and take time off to put up an update here in my online diary.

The days of my life in the recent past:

#Office:

  • Development-oriented training got over which resulted in a role change from Content contributor to developer. The path for this journey involved a lot of pain points and irritations with unreasonable amount of pressure building up. Also, added to it, being a developer at Hyderabad means more delay for being in Bangalore. Nevertheless, I decided to be happy that my career path is on the ascent. Also, given our project and team status, this might be a boon in disguise. So šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚

#Entertainment:

  • Playing Zaz and Neverball in Ubuntu proved to be one hell of an addictive entertainment until a point when I reached the last but one level of the game. I am stuck up there and am not able to complete that level and hence I decided to give the games a break.
  • Playing entanglement InĀ GoogleĀ chrome has always been pleasant.
  • Then came the cricket world cup and my blood pressure has not been the same since then. I really want the Indian team to win the cup, at least for Sachin, if not for the country. Btw, Harsha Bhogle’s article on Sachin fake Harsha Bhogle article on Sachin (Harsha Bhogle has confirmed he hasn’t written it) after the Indian team lost to South Africa was awesome. Sachin deserves every word of it and even more.

#Food:

  • With Hostel food become worse day by day, milk, curd and buttermilk are helping me out a lot in this scorching heat of Hyderabad.
  • Enjoyed eating Kulfi after a very long time. It reminded me of the good old days at Trichy when my mom would get kulfi for me and my bro and we would be fighting over who finishes first and without letting it melt and drop on the floor.

#Learning:

  • Learning technical stuff is beginning to be an enjoyable one for the first time since after my tenth standard. I know I am a bit slow but I am comfortable and doing it well enough.
  • Also, planning to move from sticking to learning one thing to multitasking in technical stuff too. Not sure how it will work out.

#Friends and Family:

  • Having a plan to meet up with family at Bangalore during Ugadi. Will get to meet Ramya too šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚ Btw, talked to her yesterday after such a long time. 1 hour was not enough for all the good stuff and gossip we had for sharing šŸ˜› Planning to catch up during the Bangalore trip.

With a feel of satisfaction of having updated my diary, I am off to start doing some more useful stuff.

Until later šŸ™‚

P.S: Fingers crossed forĀ tomorrow’sĀ match. Good luck Team India and Good luck Sachin! šŸ™‚

P.P.S: The title of the post conveys the state of my current life.

What it is being all about?

I want to learn but the beginning of the learning curve is too difficult to cross. Actually, I have not even got a hold of how to do it. Thatā€™s something I am blank about. šŸ˜

I am being trained for a development project and hence finally making a move from the stagnant maintenance work I was doing. Thatā€™s something I am happy about. šŸ™‚

However, there is a long way to go to get into the development. The toll it is taking is being increasingly difficult at each step. Thatā€™s something I am scared about. šŸ™

On an optimistic and confident note, even if I make it,Ā it comes with a dangerous package that if I get into development here at Hyderabad, the chances of me getting a transfer to a more preferable location (Yeah! Bangalore!) are closing in on Zero. Thatā€™s something I am stunned about. šŸ˜

But, either way, I canā€™t get out of it now since I have already been selected as a part of the training team. Thatā€™s something I am sad about. šŸ™

At least this way, I am learning something. Something is better than nothing, right?? Thatā€™s something I am enthusiastic about. šŸ™‚

I am in the mid of everything like experience, fresher, knowledge (I mean I donā€™t have any of these categories labeled to me fully). So, though I am looking for other job opportunities, nothing suitable is coming along. Thatā€™s something I am confused about. šŸ˜

So, what do I do now? Thatā€™s something I am thinking about.

Until later šŸ™‚

Catching up

Hi all šŸ™‚

It is good to be back at writing after a long time, that too in my website šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚ I have literally been waiting for this website to be ready to blog and hence the long gap.

With all due justifications over, I ought to jot down certain stuff here that happened in the meantime:

  • The house warming ceremony, being the first grand family function for us, happened in its full glory but literally drained out the energy out of our family.
  • I had a hard time with my health with all the travel and the work.
  • I came to discover that many relatives of mine still don’t know I have moved from Chennai to Hyderabad.
  • Biggest of all, I got to meet my bro after more than 2.5 years!
  • Had fun in opening up all the presents šŸ˜‰ (God! That was when I fullyĀ realizedĀ I am behaving like the Monica character in the “Friends” TV show in certain aspects)
  • Ah! That reminds me. I have finished watching “Friends” on my laptop. A bit sad that it got over with just 10 seasons.
  • Exchanged mobiles with bro šŸ™‚ Now, handling the Nokia 5230 with as much fun as a new born would handle a rattle. šŸ˜€
  • At last,got over Happy aquarium in Facebook.Phew!
  • Bro got posted to Pune in his new company šŸ™ šŸ™ (Why don’t they let us alone to be in Bangalore???)

I guess that’s it for now.I don’t know the reason but recently I think I have been wanting to write movie Ā and book reviews in here. However, haven’t watched any good movie that’s worth a review and I don’t think I am ready for a book review without first trying out with movies-the shorter and the easier! So,hoping to be back with something good.

Until then šŸ™‚

Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind

Hi PeopleĀ šŸ™‚

Ā This has been dormant in my mind for a while and hence the movie with name as the title of this post triggered it up. For those who have seen the movie, let me say, my post is not exactly in line with the movie. I am just having the plot around which the movie revolves as the crux of my post. Analogies and comparisons vary here.

Ā So, How many of us have wished to forget certain things/persons that/who have happened in our life? Or even it might be things that you would have done in the past, which gives you a frown for the rest of your lives when you think about it. Mostly each of us would have such instances ranging from the silly ones to extremely grave ones. Also, the one question that will linger around in your head will be-ā€œHow better it would have been if I had not done that/How better it would have been if that had not happened? At the most extreme cases, even we might be happy if we are able obliterate the incident.

Human memory is the most fascinating one. It will make you the happiest by remembering certain stuff and it will also make you go crazy by remembering certain stuff which you donā€™t want to. We might have fantasies of erasing just that part of our lives and continue our lives as if nothing happened. I am not sure if these fantasies have been madeĀ practically possible as shown in the movie (It might have happened with the racing technology). My point here is the fact that you cannot fight natural stuff because certain things are meantĀ to be the way they are-even if that gives you endless regret and sorrow.

I can say this for sure because I have had experiences and I have unspeakable mistakes to regret, as many among us do. We all have tried to get on with life as if nothing happened. However, the truth turns out to beĀ that we get over the issue but not over the fact that we did it. We can think of it without the slightest of the effect it once had on us in all aspects except the aspect of regret. That ā€œDamn!! Why couldnā€™t I have refrained from doing that stuff?ā€ still exists. I think, It is because we hold a high esteem of ourselves always and now wheneverĀ we try to maintain it, our conscience will poke us and say-ā€œHey you! You are not that good a person. Do you remember what you did during that incident?ā€ and all of a sudden there is nothing that we would not give in our life to make that one mistake right.

Actually, when you have gotten over a mistake or something bad, you should beĀ able to laugh at your mistake without a tinge of any bad feeling. This is the hard truth. The reason-ā€œForgiving is an art, It might be difficult to master it but if you try, you can. Sadly, forgetting is beyond our scopeā€. So, I think the better way to do it is to forgive yourself/others when things get out of hand. Thatā€™s all we have in our hands. Maybe, if we deserve, we might get a chance to reach a stage Ā as good as totally obliterating the unwanted memories in our mind. As you ponder on it, I might as well ask you to be careful and not cause any regrettable incidents in your loved onesā€™ lives because that way, it becomes harder. You have enough trouble trying to forgive yourself and forget your mistake than having to try to make another mind to forgive and forget a mistake of yours.

All these are my reflections on seeing the movieĀ ā€œEternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mindā€ and doing some serious pondering over human memory. So, I might be as wrong as I might be right about the whole thing.

Ā Until later šŸ™‚

Random musings

Hi all šŸ™‚

A Strange thought occurred to me and I was pondering for so long on it and still not yet found an answer. Currently, my office communicator status is-ā€œLife is simple, donā€™t complicate it!ā€ However, I am really thinking if it is really theĀ vice-versa thatā€™s true. Movies show lives that are much easier and knots in life which are much easier to untie. Even in the society, many take life to beĀ so simple or seem to take it so. However in reality, oneā€™s own life doesnā€™tā€™ seem so (at least, not for me :P) So I guess my status should be-ā€œLife is not that simple, donā€™t you dare take it easy!ā€ Darn, thatā€™s too pessimistic. So for now, I am not let this thought bug me anymore and let my status be unchanged at least for the optimism it might instill in meĀ  šŸ™‚

Another nagging thought in my pensieveĀ recently is about tears. Generally, tears would either mean sadness or extreme happiness (Tears of joy), the former being more prominent. Many people might think it is cowardly to cry or something of that sort. Even some might take pride in the fact that they have never cried. Yet somehow, all along my life, tears have helped me. What I mean is that, if I cry till I want to, I will feel better by such a great extent. I will be able to forgive anyone who caused it (if there was anyone). I will be able to forget the hurt. Even many times, I have felt like crying just to relieve the stress building up in me (stress may be anything varying from day-to-day work pressure to fights with loved ones). Some people might think that we are allowing ourselves to get hurt by crying and hence end up hurting ourselves. I feel differently. Even if I allow myself to get hurt by someone, by crying I get back leaving all unworthy memories behind. So, ignoring the advice given by many, which is ā€œBeing a bold girl that you are, you should not cryā€, I will cry if I want to and if I feel like and I will definitely make sure if I am crying for anyone, that person is worthy of my tears [This paragraph might have been total non-sense to some of you. Sorry for that]

Nowadays, I want to blog but am not just hitting upon topics to blog. If at all I hit upon a topic, I donā€™t get the content racing through my mind. I hate that feeling. Maybe my mind has become too lazy, got to refresh it with a good book (And, am still guilty about not finishing ā€œBetween the assassinationsā€ though I have waded through more than half of the book. Maybe the book is pulling me down due to its way of blending all the happenings in different personsā€™ lives)

I am working on creating my own purchased domain with the help of AdhiĀ and might move my blog there once the groundwork is done. This is an advance notice for you all. šŸ˜›Ā Of course, a Ā formal post about moving the blog would come up. šŸ™‚

Until later šŸ™‚

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