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Yay!

November 1, 2012 / / 5 Comments

The title says all that I really wanna say because I am going on a holiday for a fortnight 🙂 The switch in companies is giving me a little something to enjoy. However, at the moment my mind is worried about a lot of things. It is resisting the change and hence am officially freaked out. The final settlements in my current company are keeping me on my toes. Man, it is really frustrating when you see the treatment you receive when you say you have decided to leave the organization. No responses for queries, No reply mails, No answer to calls. I was an employee for 2.5 years right? I know it is like this everywhere but the question is why is it like that? Nobody has an answer to that.

Anyway, I am trying my best to ignore the resistance that comes naturally as a part of any change. Going home and spending quality time with my family will definitely help, though will be missing my bro badly. Have a lot of stuff on the to-do list. Hoping to complete everything and come back with a freshened up spirit 🙂 Let us see 🙂

See all guys in about 2 weeks 🙂 Diwali wishes in advance since I won’t know if I will have much internet access at my home town, even more, not sure if I will have the time. Have fun, folks!

Until later 🙂

நிரந்தர அமைதி

June 28, 2012 / / 3 Comments

எங்கும் கேட்கும் அலறல்கள்,
அவரவர்க்கு முக்கியம் எனப்படும் விஷயங்கள்,
அதை நிலை நாட்டும் முயற்சியில் சர்ச்சைகள்,
இதனிடையே வாழ்க்கையை தேடித்  தேடி களைத்துவிட்டேன்,
இருப்பதற்கென்று வந்து இல்லாமல் தான் போகிறோம்,
தைரியசாலியான என்னை கோழை ஆக்காதீர்கள்,
தற்காலிக அமைதியில் நிம்மதி அடைய முயற்சிக்கும் என்னை,
நிரந்தர அமைதியை தேடிச்செல்ல ஊக்குவிக்காதீர்கள்!

Until later 🙂

P.S: Maiden attempt! Sorry if it does not reach you or if you could not read Tamil.

:(

June 16, 2012 / / 2 Comments

It’s been more than a week since I applied for a broadband connection from Airtel. All my documents submitted. No response yet. All I am doing these days is calling the customer care and giving complaints. All they do is reply with a vague message saying that there is some technical issue and that they will resolve it soon. But how soon, no concrete answer. What’s the issue? No concrete answer 🙁 I am almost tempted to go for a data card but having enjoyed the benefits of broadband connection for over a year at Hyderabad, my logical mind chides me and asks me to be patient.

I miss blogging, reading blogs and idling away on the internet. For the past few months, I had the option but life was tossing me so much around and I didn’t write or read. But now, I am settled in Bangalore and I want to read/write but Airtel makes sure that I don’t get to do it 🙁

At uncle’s home for the weekend. The first thing that I did after coming here is write this post. My blog is filling up with excuse posts and comeback post. I wanna break that and start writing like I used to before. So praying for Airtel to be graceful enough. Would you  too please pray for me?

Until later (I get an internet connection) 🙂

P.S: Off to read and comment on all the blogs I follow 🙂

P.S.S: I really like that human verification thingy that I reply to comments without logging in on purpose 🙂 Hope you like it too 🙂

A thin line

March 26, 2012 / / 12 Comments

Pre.S: I have written something that makes complete sense to me but that might not be the case with you. Now, you cannot say that I didn’t warn you. Read at your own risk. 😉

A thin line. That’s all there is to life. Between every pair of opposites. Between happiness and sadness. I look through the frame and see how a few words can turn me into the most happy person on earth and how the lack of them makes me feel that life sucks big time. A thin line between comfort and discomfort. I see how 2 strangers who are going to share my room for the next weeks make me so comfortable as opposed to my normal discomfort in such cases. I also see the reason that is behind this, which is, I have experienced what it is to be lonely. And so now I appreciate even the strangers’ presence and constant babble. A very thin line between love and hate. I can see how I can so easily hate something that I love very much. A very thin line between feeling assured and anxiety. That thin line’s timing is less than a second. A blink is all it takes to make you feel assured and vice-versa.

A simple “I am there for you” can wash away the emptiness that is eating you from inside. Weakness and strength-separated by a thread. When I feel so weak, apparently I end up showing more strength. Nothing but survival instinct. Looking back, my most feared moments have proved I have been the bravest in my life during those moments. How mingled tears and laughter are. You cry when you are really sad and you cry when you are really happy. It is the threshold that when tipped over thrusts you into the opposite dimension with full force at a speed that’s so fast that you never know what hits you. A smile turns into a frown in a matter of a second. Darkness and light are reversed with one flick of a switch, even in our minds and not just in the outside world.

Always at the brim. Ready to overflow. One more drop, the tank starts flowing and never stops. It is always the way with emotions. There is no mastering them. If you think you have mastered emotions, it is just that you have not met your match and that’s why. When the tipping point is crossed, there is nothing to do but to tip over and fall headlong into the positive pit or the negative pit. Which you fall into is decided by life. Either way both pits are bottomless.

Until later 🙂

Post.S: If you understand what I have written, well, I am glad that there is one more person who feels so. If you don’t get it and think “what a load of crap!”, well, I apologize.

The st(r)ained mind

January 25, 2012 / / 10 Comments

P.S: I am in a very bleh phase now and hence I apologize in advance for a crappy abstract post. But do go ahead and read it. 😉

There is not a soul around. None to share. None to laugh with. The only sound that reverberates in the solitary room is the sound of the fan going round and round, doing its boring job and keeping to itself. Somehow the memories have faded away. The people have drifted apart. The few who stayed are too busy to bother. I have always needed time with myself but now I doubt if there is too much time with myself and myself alone.

Everything seems bitter and then I console myself with shallow words. Episodes and episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S seem to be the only comfort and the much-needed distraction. Sleep comes and goes irrespective of time, as it pleases but it does not do its job. Meaningless dreams fill my sleep, me tossing and turning, doing anything but resting. The light is always on for the fear of getting lost in the dark loneliness otherwise. The idiot box stays on for most of the time though there is none to watch it. The people inside it seem to be more of a companion than the real ones. But being the virtual ones that they are, they stay for a while and then move on to mind their affairs. It seems like I have retracted myself in an innermost circle where none is there. The occasional visitors to the circle don’t seem to be doing a good job in providing me company.

I read, read and then read some more. Getting lost in a different world, as if somehow that will help me forget the world I am actually in. Sometimes I think that I am pathetic and sometimes I think I am recuperating. Sometimes I think the situation is hopeless but I know the hope has not yet died and that it never will. I know this will take some more time to pass on. I also know that I will survive one way or the other, because I am a survivor. Have always been one. I will have my highs and lows. I will even hit rock bottom. But I will never fail to try to get up from rock bottom and swim up.

The mist will lift. The light will come. Until then, I am not going to give up. I will have my share of things that will give my life a better turn. I just have to wait away the time.

Until later 🙂

P.S: I am off to home. Yay! Will be back in a week to stalk your blogs. Until then, please remember me, will ya?

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