I think, therefore I write

The st(r)ained mind

P.S: I am in a very bleh phase nowย and hence Iย apologizeย in advance for a crappy abstract post. But do go ahead and read it. ๐Ÿ˜‰

There is not a soul around. None to share. None to laugh with. The only sound thatย reverberatesย in the solitary room is the sound of the fan going round and round, doing its boring job and keeping to itself. Somehow the memories have faded away. The people have drifted apart. The few who stayedย are too busy to bother. I have always needed time with myself but now I doubt if there is too much time with myself and myself alone.

Everything seems bitter and then I console myself with shallow words. Episodes and episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S seem to be the only comfort and the much-needed distraction. Sleep comes and goes irrespective of time, as it pleases but it does not do its job. Meaningless dreams fill my sleep, me tossing and turning, doing anything but resting. The light is always on for the fear of getting lost in the dark loneliness otherwise. The idiot box stays on for most of the time though there is none to watch it. The people inside it seem to be more of a companion than the real ones. But being the virtual ones that they are, they stay for a while and then move on to mind their affairs. It seems like I have retracted myself in an innermost circle where none is there. The occasional visitors to the circle don’t seem to be doing a good job in providing me company.

I read, read and then read some more. Getting lost in a different world, as if somehow that will help me forget the world I am actually in. Sometimes I think that I am pathetic and sometimes I think I am recuperating. Sometimes I think the situation is hopeless but I know the hope has not yet died and that it never will. I know this will take some more time to pass on. I also know that I will survive one way or the other, because I am a survivor. Have always been one. I will have my highs and lows. I will even hit rock bottom. But I will never fail to try to get up from rock bottom and swim up.

The mist will lift. The light will come. Until then, I am not going to give up. I will have my share of things that will give my life a better turn. I just have to wait away the time.

Until later ๐Ÿ™‚

P.S: I am off to home. Yay! Will be back in a week to stalk your blogs. Until then, please remember me, will ya?

10 Comments

  1. undiscovered chica

    Happens, happens to me, happens to you, happens to others. This normally indicates that happy times are near! Newbie here! Nice to see some blogger on wordpress, though! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Keirthana

      That’s comforting to hear I am not alone in this tumult of emotions. Appreciate your coming over, Means a lot to me ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks! Have always loved WordPress ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. Phatichar

    Wow..you sure have a way with words, young lady. ๐Ÿ™‚

    Keep it up – will return for more.

    • Keirthana

      Thanks Phatichar ๐Ÿ™‚ Have heard about you before and I was thinking of hopping on to your blog to get to know you once I find some time and you beat me here ๐Ÿ™‚ Anyway thanks for coming and do come again ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. Mirage

    Hey dost, it happens. I have felt this too. But it is imperative for you to believe what P.B Shelly says that if winter comes, can spring be far behind?

    And I loved the way you have jotted down your feelings.

    Take care! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Keirthana

      Thanks Vi! I am hanging on. Thanks for dropping by and do come again ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. Archana

    Hi darling ๐Ÿ™‚

    I have been in a similar state too many times ๐Ÿ™‚ It is all a cloud, trust me! And FRIENDS helps!!

    • Keirthana

      Hello Archana ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks for your comforting words ๐Ÿ™‚ And Yeah FRIENDS cheer me up anytime and every single time ๐Ÿ™‚ Thanks for dropping by and do come again..

  5. smita

    Hi!
    I am happy to inform you that you have been awarded “The Versatile Blogger” award on my blog piece.

    Kindly visit and accept the award : http://smitasdesk.blogspot.in/2012/02/and-award-goes-to.html

    Regards
    Smita.

    • Keirthana

      Wow Smita, I don’t know what to say. Thanks a ton! It is my first award and your award has come as a huge mood-lifter for me at this time of low tides. Thank you once again ๐Ÿ™‚

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