I have been forced to come out of my denial mode. The instant happened yesterday in the Gym which I joined only last week. You guessed it right, my mind has been denying that I am overweight in spite of the mirror telling me I need to reconsider my lifestyle. The fact that if you know what to wear you will always look decent didn’t help either. Since I had a decent wardrobe courtesy my friends and my guy, it was never clumsy to wear modern-wear. So I stuffed myself with Junk food, Chocolates, Crispy Dosas and what not. Adding to the temptation, my office canteen kept on opening a variety of counters for all types of normal and junk food – A dessert counter, A snack counter, A chaat counter, A tiffin counter and it went on.
And so the once at-least normal girl is now fat. As I was freaking out on this fact once my denial haze lifted, an interesting thought came in. The Cadbury company should be sued for producing such tempting chocolates. It is almost a criminal sin to tempt people who are oblivious and licking off that silky diary milk off the wrapper, all the while adding numbers to their weight. What more, if you buy a Diary Milk of that huge size (I am not sure if it is the family pack), they are giving you a Bournville of the same size for free. This is what they call hell for chocolate addicts like us. (Well, actually heaven but when it comes to the weight factor, hell it is!!) I am a chocolate freak and that’s what landed me in the gym now. 😥
And the chicken pox episode just blew up the whole thing. Almost 20 days of just eating and sleeping. And unlike most people, my grandma did not insist I only eat curd rice during my tenure of being sick. She said I can eat everything home-made. That was the icing on the cake. So there I was in my own food heaven until the realization hit yesterday. Thank god, I realized it before it’s too late. It’s gonna be hard but not impossible to cut those extra KGs. My muscles are on a strike as I try to workout in the gym. They scream every possible curse at me. There is no breath control or capacity in my lungs! So much for being a swimmer. I was not able to jog continuously for 5 mins and I was wondering where has that person who beat the record runner in the class during school gone. 😳
Adding insult to injury, there was this body builder guy in my gym, working out on the cycling machine next to me and he was pedaling away like he’s the gold medalist in Olympics and there I was by his side, pedaling like I was participating in a slow cycle race. Why god why? The couple of girls who were there were like Deepika Padukone. (No, I was not checking them out. Don’t get any dirty ideas. 😉 I was just registering that they don’t need the gym at all.)Why do they have to come to gym when they are so thin? Only when I saw a few more ladies who came to gym to actually work out the fat, the relief flooded in. Yeah, I am not alone.
At the canteen, while everyone was having pakodas, french fries, potato smiles, chole-baturas, all I could think of was how difficult it was to shed the calories which I gained by eating them. And I was sitting there sadly with my fruit bowl and green tea, resisting the temptation which tried to break free. Every time I go to the canteen, it is like a clash of titans -the foodie in me will want to have something tasty, the other me will want to avoid unhealthy food. Ugh! 😡
When I read this post by Red handed, I had commented that I could write a miniature version of it. I don’t know what I was thinking (Guess I was very proud of the fact that I did not gain weight over a 1.5 years even though I hogged and my physical activity was less. I just remained the same and it went to my head. Sigh!) but I have just started with the process and it will be a good few months before I can write such a post declaring my victory over the cellulite. Hoping such a day comes 🙂
Until later 🙂
P.S: You can read the post how many ever times you want, but I have not given away my weight anywhere 😛 Not yet! I will tell only when I have achieved my target. Till then, no guesses. 😈
P.P.S: I generally lack the ability to have a laugh at myself and handle criticism well. So this is a first. 🙂
P.P.P.S: When I think of people like Ajay who eat junk food as their breakfast, lunch and dinner and yet stay stick thin, my blood boils. 👿
I was one of those kind too. Could hog away to glory but thanks to am awesome metabolic rate remained stick thin. That was until I was 25 years old.
Then some hormonal imbalance problem hit and soon I was 20 kgs heavier. You read that right, twenty kilograms!! Imagine my shock. But thanks to being stick like for 25 years I just looked a tad bit cushioned and not fat. Today as I look in the mirror I definitely look fuller and healthy but a small part of me cannot help but want to go back to being slim.
But who has time to go to the gym anyway. Just hoping that my hormones will get a balance soon and shrink me back to how I was before 😛
All the best to you!
Wow! I wish I had a metabolic rate like that. But then, I guess it has something to do with the age factor. I am about to hit that 25 and suddenly my weight gain is faster. If not thin, I was normal and on a steady number before.
Lucky you! More to it, you are taller and hence you adding some weight actually doesn’t count in making you fat 🙂 That’s good!
From experience, I know that the ugliest people for a non-thin person are thin people who don’t have to work for it.
I was underweight until I hit 26, when my body decided that middle age meant weight around the middle, which isn’t helped by my love for beer.
I feel your pain.
Well, as for me there is no beauty or the lack of it in being thin or fat. But I do agree there is that ugly head of jealousy looking up when I see thin people who don’t have to work for it. 😉
Thanks for dropping by! Do come for more 🙂
Psst..three little secrets for weight loss. Drink milk. Cut down as much refined sugar as possible. And a have a bit more water than you usually do. It definitely helps 🙂
Hope we get to hear the victory story soon 😀
Drinking milk is a weight loss tip? Really? I was having a misconception that it adds weight. Thanks for the tips Visha. After reading your tata phase post, I have cut down on refined sugar to almost nil and I generally don’t drink water unless I am very thirsty which is bad. Now, I am changing it and since am new to the feeling, I feel like I am having a sea in my tummy every time I drink water. 🙁
Sure, victory is on the way but it will come at a snail’s pace. 🙂
Food is so hard to resist, I just don’t know how people can do it! So hats off to you for eating fruits and not eating all the junk food.
Can’t wait to hear of your victory 😀
Yes, saying no to all those slurpy food is the hardest part of this process. Thank you 🙂
Working hard for that victory. Hopefully, it comes soon.
I have been fat for more than a decade and I have tried so many things which fell apart only because of my love for food 🙁 I can’t give up and I m way too lazy to keep exercising all the time. I lose weight then indulge myself and then again put on weight-vicious cycle 🙁
It’s hard, I agree. So hard that every time I look at yummy food, I almost give up. Then somehow, I tell myself about all the resolutions I made exaggerating on how fat I am and exit the place before my mind changes back. I remind myself of how much I was panting like a dog just an hour ago in the gym simply for running on the treadmill for 2 minutes.
It’s too difficult 🙁 Dragging myself through the process.
Oh yes. You can look up online health articles. Basically it cuts down your food portions along with giving you natural nutrition. Say you had a tall glass of milk in the morning, your breakfast intake will be less cause you are already full.
I forgot to mention one thing along with the tips. You need not go on a diet, you can eat your normal daily meals, while having more water and no sugar. Since you are already gymming, you can be relaxed about the food part, only have an eye on your food portions 🙂
I implemented this stuff without gymming, but with walking and yoga. It took me about 2 months to feel lighter 😀
Yeah, checked it out. And I am just cutting down of junk food and full of fat. I know cutting down food totally is not the way to go. 🙂
I am doing gymming with yoga 🙂 And using stairs!
Thank You. 🙂
I will take that as an appreciation. (Well, I know it is an appreciation only, from my perspective. It sure does hurt from your perspective. :P)
As long as I don’t get into oversized shirts and trousers, Cadbury is never to be at blame. Come on, I have been eating it like a mini lunch after lunch, mini-dinner after dinner for like three years now. And the funny part is that at the counter when I go, I don’t even have to ask what I want. He automatically hands me two Silks, because that has been my routine. 😛
And you are trying to stay fit. That’s a good thing. Though, after you have shed those extra kilos that you say you have gained, keep on with the gym, so that even if you eat occasionally, you won’t have to bother much.
You can count me out of gym for the time being. I really don’t know the logic. I should be double my size, and the same thing my friends say when they catch me eating secretly that DairyMilk Silk (and ya, I don’t like to share my chocolates especially this one 😛 ). And if this helps in anyway, I was about to eat the french fries when I was saw your tweet. 😀 And cool your blood my friend, boiling it doesn’t burn the calories, or may be it does, I don’t know. 😛
You take it as a compliment. That’s okay. But talking about eating 2 diary milk silk chocolates and french fries. That, that is not okay!!!!! For god’s sake, you eat 2 everytime? And you don’t put on weight? 😥
Yes, I do plan to keep up with the workout even after I shed the extra KGs. Stamina is more important than the weight number.
Thanks, taken as a complement. 😀
Everything is fair when it comes to chocolates. 😛
Yeah, daily two, sometimes one. Half of my salary goes into buying chocolates and french fries and other junk food.
And I too haven’t understood the logic. Please do explain, if you have any explanation to the same.
Stamina will slowly develop and all the best on the weight losing thing. Btw what about the chocolates on your end ? Totally stopped eating them ? :O
Well, there’s no logic at all. Plain biased treatment. I am gonna pray harder to God to make you gain weight for every chocolate/junk food you eat from now.
And no, stop right there. No tempting!
Noooooo.! That’s not fair. You shouldn’t do that. I asked for a logic, not a curse. 😛 Anyways, lets see if itworks. 😛
Stop where ? Oh, You want one Silk? I saved one for now. You want it? Hehehe. I am just asking, not tempting you. 😛
You’re evil! 👿 😛
So I have heard. 😛